I haven’t been on much lately. Been up during the day (*shock*) and spending time with mom and stuff. Then I lifted a huge-ass bag of trash at work into the dumpster and pulled something in my back plus just got Auntie Flo so blargh. Hi to new followers and to old ones as well!

I’ll leave you with this bit of weirdness from my brain….

Me: *listening to David Bowie’s “Modern Love”*
David: I’ll catch a penis, boy.
Me: That can’t be the actual line. *looks it up* Oh! “I’ll catch a paper boy.” Close enough.

Oh, and I love Johnny more and more every day, woo!

Have to get up at 10am, shower, go to see dad in hospital, go to craft store, go to therapy, come home, rest, go to work. My head is hurting, can’t fall asleep and now I’m hungry. Pfft. I don’t know how my mom does it.

Lost Bondage & Torture

Mitt R. - “You’re Doing It Wrong” [text]

Mitt R. - “Making kids fly since 2012.” [text]

Mitt R. - “Playing with human dolls since 2012.” [text]

Mitt R. - “Learning how children work.” [text]

My therapist (yesterday) said she sees progress in me. That was nice to hear. I guess I’m more outspoken in public as long as my mom is with me as a shield, but if something/someone bugs me when we’re out, I don’t just keep my mouth shut about it. Though, if I walk away from her and someone does something that pisses me off, I don’t say anything. Ug. I hate that I don’t. Part of me is afraid I’ll say something and the person will start bitching at me and I won’t know what to say, and part of me thinks I’ll make the person feel bad (if they didn’t realize they did something wrong). I suppose it’s easier to mention things when you have someone there with you to get your back.

Mom, dad and me went to look at lounge chairs today. Didn’t find any to get, though. I had to go around shutting the recliner parts cos they were so hard to shut. Then we went to Five Guys and actually sat at the table together. Haven’t ate dinner together since Christmas! That was nice.

Work in a few hours. Shouldn’t have to work on my anniversary, hehe!

My mom had to leave work for a while cos of my dad going through chemo. She’s been there longer than anyone. She gets treated with little to no respect and taken advantage of. She DOES her job, does the job of OTHERS who are too lazy and she gets treated like NOTHING in there. They couldn’t even give her anything for her birthday while other people get pricy shit cos they’re friends with the boss. The owner hasn’t stepped foot in there in years and has no idea what shit goes on in there. I didn’t feel well yesterday so my mom went in to clean (we do it together cos they only give her a key to get in even though I’m the one hired to do the job). The boss told her they can only let her miss work for 3 months, then they have to fire her. Since they don’t have 50 employees in there, they don’t have to go by the medical leave law. They already have someone filling in for my mom (as if she does as much as my mom did, which was a LOT including making coffee, cleaning up every day, making copies of things they need, etc). So I don’t see what the big fucking deal is that she can’t go back whenever she can even if it’s longer than 3 months. She’s gone in there when she was supposed to be on vacation (NOT paid, mind you) to help out. She’s gone in to help other people when THEY needed it.

So then he tells her that there are two people interested in my cleaning job and that I NEED to come in there (or my mom has to) in the middle of the week to empty the trash cos people are complaining about it overflowing. Okay. The girl filling in for my mom hasn’t been there that long and is already doing my mom’s job (took my mom YEARS to work her way up to her own desk and all, only to be pushed out). She was SUPPOSED to be doing the trash while my mom wasn’t there, but that didn’t happen. Nobody can help my mom out when she needs it?? I was hired to work ONE DAY in there. I never even signed anything, so how the fuck can I prove it? And since I’m self-employed, I probably can’t even get unemployment if I got fired. I’m not going in there other than what I was hired for and I told my mom not to, either. She told the boss that she only started doing the trash every morning as a nice gesture. She’d go in early and empty it all. What did he say to that? He told her it’s HER fault she started that. W.T.F.

I really think it’s more the lazy supervisor’s daughter who wants my job. She gets free everything under the sun even when she and her husband work part time. They have kids and they get pricy gifts from the boss cos they all hang out together. The supervisor acts like she’s my mom’s friend but is a two-faced back-stabber and her daughter gets away with everything (even bringing in little kids while other people in there aren’t allowed to do that). She sits on her ass reading or playing on the computer and doesn’t get up to do anything, but claims she has all these important things she does. Bullshit. I have nothing else as income. After taxes, I make a bit over $100 a month. I don’t get food stamps or welfare, or free electricity or get to go on cruises (wtf) like SOME people and they wanna take away the tiny amount of income, especially NOW with my dad being sick and my mom taking off. I wish that place would get shut down. It breaks so many damn laws already I can’t believe it’s still there. You can go to the boss and tell him shit goes on and he ignores it all. He cut back so much in there because of money but the heat is always on like 76-77 even over the weekend! If he’s actually LOOK at what’s going on, he’d realize where the problems are! But no. He doesn’t wanna be bothered. If someone applies for unemployment, he has good lawyers who make sure you don’t get it.

I fucking hate that place. I worked in there before and got fired for not doing quota (I was in school, too) but now people can get away with EVERYTHING and not get fired. They won’t hire people if they’re a certain colour or gender either. If you go in there stupid as fuck but have a nice rack and a cute face, you get hired. But they never get in trouble. Fucking bullshit.